Try, try again… Well my first trip was not successful, but this time I made sure to get my appointment with Dr. Komotar. Unfortunately for me, he is a surgeon and there’s nothing surgical to be done. The tumors are inoperable. My doctor spoke to him about my case and it was months ago. Maybe he didn’t have scans in front of him when he agreed to see me. Be that as it may… I still feel good about my visit. For one thing, he didn’t find my Nov 5 scan alarming. He said that I seem to responding to the Avastin and that I look well. He wanted me to see a neuro oncologist. He referred me to one at UM. I’m actually excited to hear her perspective on my case. She’s done some peer reviewed research on Avastin and GBM. Dr. Komotar was on this paper as well. I have not read it yet, however it comforts me to know she’s studied it in a formal way.
While I realize there is no ‘silver bullet’ to cancer, I still believe in my heart that I will survive this. Miracles happen all the time. My cognition is okay right now. As I’m typing this I forget a word or two. But I’m catching it in the proofreading. So, I know what to do, it just takes longer to get it done. LOL It’s like walking. I can walk without a cane, and yet it helps to use it on stairs and to give me some momentum. Lately, my biggest complaint are my achy knees. When I sit for a bit, they ache when I get up. Hoping this will get better as I lose weight. The diet my endocrinologist has me doing is helping. Although today is Thanksgiving so there may be a bit of pie and stuffing happening. As long as I don’t fall off the wagon completely tomorrow will be another restart. Heh, heh.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I really have so much to be grateful for. I woke up this morning and I’m writing this post. I’m breathing and I’ve got some new potential help with the neuro oncologist.
HOPE. What a blessing. I had lost my hope for a few days there. I downright panicked even though there was no need. Now I’m feeling better about everything. My situation didn’t change. I still have tumors. My attitude changed. My perspective changed. Next time I’ll be more patient and hang on to HOPE first.