I just got my MRI in my chart, but since I’m not a doctor it doesn’t make much sense. I see the words “decrease” and “increase”. I also see words like “findings are worrisome.” I was supposed to see the radiation oncologist yesterday, but she cancelled the appointment. I see my medical oncologist on Thursday when I do my chemo.
Hopefully she’ll be able to interpret the findings. Right now, just seeing this report narrative is upsetting. I know in my mind that I shouldn’t be upset since I don’t understand what it all means. I should wait till I see the doctor in a few days. There are so many emotions right now. Through it all I am trying to stay positive. I’m trying to not to dwell on the report, but it’s difficult to stop thinking about it. I’ve been going through so many changes over the last 15 months. The seasons roll on, I develop different issues and deal with them one by one. This feels more serious. I pray it isn’t. My hope is that it is a temporary setback if it is bad news. At the end, it may be a misinterpretation and not so bad. Much of the narrative is similar to the last MRI which was positive. So who knows? I’ll find out more on Thursday. Wish me luck!