Today I went to a doctor’s appointment and found out that I lost six pounds. That may not be a lot for many. For me, it’s a small miracle. I’ve had to eat a low starch diet for 2 weeks. I’m experiencing an onset of diabetes from the steroid I was taking. I’m off the steroid but the effects may last a while. I didn’t swear off carbs, but I definitely cut back. I love bread… everything I eat ends up as a sandwich. LOL
So, that little girl makes me smile. I do think twice about what I can substitute for bread. Sometimes I decide on a tortilla and my meal turns into something much better than a sandwich. LOL For some reason a tortilla calls for more.
When I was first diagnosed with Glioblastoma (GBM), I immediately thought, “OK, here’s my next journey.” I saw it as a new path in life. Not a death sentence. I don’t think I even got sad for a few days. I remember late at night crying for no reason other than to let out the emotions running inside me. I thought about all the silly things I worried about before and how unimportant they were now. Brain cancer, huh? Alright, where do we go from here?
So perspective… Now that my cancer is stable I can focus on eating better. Maybe even a little exercise by walking. I have far more energy than before when I was doing radiation and chemo. I tend to still have a brain fog and short term memory loss, but I feel a little more up to doing things. I just pray for a good night’s sleep and for my stomach to stay settled. There have been some challenges with that. I’m nauseous much of the time which means all smells are offensive and everything turns my stomach. I tend to skip dinner if I don’t eat by 8pm. I’m staying on Avastin for a few months more so we’ll see if anything changes once I stop.
I’m thankful for feeling better for the moment. GBM is a terrible disease in that things can change on a dime. There’s so much gratitude in my heart that I’m not suffering so much from the chemo. So far it’s been very tolerable. I’m in a routine with it and the side effects haven’t been too bad. If you’re going through chemo, keep a positive outlook. Each session is helping your cancer go away. It isn’t always easy, but it’s a small step towards recovery. My wish is to get on the other side of this and have the cancer gone 100%. That’s next to impossible for GBM, but I like to dream big.
Life perspective? It’s going to keep changing. As I heal, priories shift. The one constant thought in my mind, my life is eternal. This time on earth is temporary, so don’t sweat the trivial stuff. There may be many things I can’t do anymore, but I am grateful for being able to walk, to smile and spend time with family and friends. I’m grateful for good food that supports my healing and for all the support I get from everyone around me. I love you all!!! xxx OOO