It’s starting off slowly. This is the third week of treatment with radiation and chemo and the hair is falling out like crazy. It’s only in certain spots. But it’s very noticeable to me. I have a lot of hair so I doubt anyone will really notice. I’m planning on cutting it shorter to keep it more manageable. Right now it’s hard to do my hair the way I used to because of the incision which is still healing. There is also the notion that I have to care for my scalp so that when I have to shave it all off in another month, it’ll be in decent shape. I can’t imagine what I will look like bald. I won’t recognize the person in the mirror. I’m expecting it to be a little surreal. I may cut it short next week in advance of shaving it.
As I took off my jacket today I saw a ball of hair in the collar. Yeah, this is happening. They tell you that your hair will fall out, but until you see balls of it come loose it’s just not real. Now it’s really fuckin’ real. I spoke with my radiation oncologist today and she told me it would come off in patches. Week #3 has been a humdinger so far. I feel my body changing and the side effects are rolling in. Some things haven’t changed. The radiation always sets off a bleachy smell when the first strobe goes off. I’ve been doing better with vertigo afterwards. I feel more tired than before, but I’m trying to keep a regular schedule for sleeping. It’s difficult sometimes, I find myself dozing at work. My office is a little dark so that probably has a lot to do with it. I just hope no one walks by and thinks I’m being lazy. I honestly can’t help it. I’m just glad that I’m not driving right now. I wouldn’t trust myself behind the wheel at the moment. The fatigue is incredible. I’m starting to have trouble making it upstairs. I go slowly. The rash on my face is getting worse, but at least it isn’t red. It’s just itchy and spreading. But back to the hair. I have to face it. That hair is falling out and we’re going to be shaving it all off in another month. Hello, new normal.
I’ll need to get some scarves for my new bald look. I’m thinking an Alicia Keys vibe. I don’t want to wear old lady turbans or motorcycle doo-rags. I’m bringing back my hoop earrings and some nice colorful scarves. I might have to be bald, but I don’t have to be frumpy. It’s the new normal. Bald and all, but stylish. It could be a nice way to cover up my Optune cap as well. I can wear a hat, but it may be too hot for that. At least a scarf can breathe a little bit. I got an orientation kit from Optune and scalp health was a big deal.
Being bald may not be so bad. It’s only temporary. The hair will grow back. Just think of the money I’ll save on Keratin. LOL Well, I’m gonna rock those scarves and be the Cancer Vixen.